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Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect her to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect her to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing. Love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it.

Love happens; it is so incredibly messy. People around you can’t comprehend why you do the things you do, or why you fight so hard for something that seems to cause you so much pain, because simply, they can’t see. They can’t see the invisible ring of insanity that surrounds you when you’re in love. It’s inconvenient and painful and devastating at times, but we can’t live without it. What you don’t learn is how hard love is. How much work it takes. How much of ourselves we have to put into it. How it isn’t worth it until we are complete and utter idiots about it.

Love isn’t her calming you down when you yell. It’s her yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in your face to wake you up and to keep you grounded. It isn’t her/him bringing you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear more presentable.

It’s after a long fight, that drains the life and bones right out of you both, and yet her showing up at your door the next morning anyway. It’s not her saying all the right things or knowing exactly how to handle you. So no, it’s not her caressing your hair and telling you everything is going to be alright. It’s her standing there, admitting she’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your life, your heart into the palms of another persons hands and said, here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat. Or forget I ever handed it to you. As long as you have it.

It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn’t cross. Because love isn’t about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It’s about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty is worth it. And it’s a hell of a lot better, than being 100% happy without someone to show us that there is a world of a difference between feeling ‘happy’ and feeling whole.

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When I'm on my way to my office, I saw an advertisement along Edsa about this zebra print watches from Swatch. Love at first sight. I want! I will add this to my wish list for my birthday. So to anyone, friends, family, classmates, tumblrista or special love ones. Hi! I'll be ecstatic to received one for my birthday. It's either the blue or the pink one, alright? Clear? hihihihi. I'm in love with wild prints! Yes. I am. :)

Mirror mirror on the wall, who’s the prettiest of them all? Is it me? NOT! I’m not. Well, some people say I’m pretty but for me I’m just lucky to have good genes from my parents. I still need to improve a lot. Inside and outside. I need to lose a lot of weight. I’m happy for who I am. But I’m not contented physically. Like every girl encountering, I still have my insecurities. I’m trying and wanting for a better me. Just give me time and motivation. Soon I’ll be reborn. A new person… confident and successful. Looking forward for a better future.

I want to tell you everything. Yes, true. But unfortunately you’re so busy with your life. I’m scared that you might not want to hear it. You don’t want to listen to every word I will blurt from my mouth. You might not like me after telling the story of my life. I want to share all the mishaps and adventures in my world. I want you to be part of it. Maybe soon or time might not come. However, I’m still not losing hope. I believe someday we’ll know everything about each other.

To my long lost friends,

Especially to the ones I seldom talked to or we don't even have a communication with. I want to ask why? What happened? Maybe time just passed by so fast, we forgot each other. Sad. Whatever happens I'll be your friend till the end. Let's fill up the missing pieces of our lives. I'm ready to listen, talk, laugh or cry just like old times. I miss the days with you. I hope to see you soon.

xoxo,

someone you drifted apart

I despise your actions because it caused me pain, heartache, and shuttered dreams. You pushed me to a cliff without catching me. You let me fall. Then, you pretend you care until you slowly vanished into thin air. I’m injured. You left. This is me alone. Unsecured. Unloved. Confused. I was alone in this place of unknown. Imagining what if… why… or how it end up like this. Too much of uncertainty, I became too foolish to look out for answers. I kept on blaming myself… But I stop, then, the time let me realized, you made me strong. Unfortunately, I became allergic to bullshit. I itch everytime, they’re near me. I sneeze when they talk. Thanks to you. I know how to prevent a virus like you. P.S. I hate u no more. Acceptance is the key.

xoxo,

Stronger.

Nida blanca Gusto kita makausap! Alam mo bang affected akong tunay noong nalaman kong namatay ka na? natatakot kasi ako, feeling ko dadalawin mo ko. Pag tagal narealize ko na, hindi mo nga ko kilala. Adik lang! hahaha

xoxo,

matatakutin na bata

For now, I don't have any particular person, who I really want to meet, but I 'm hoping someone who will inspire me to do good. To motivate me in so many ways. To open my mind to the wonders of the world. Someone who will bring me closer to God. To teach me to be thankful from every blessings I'll receive. I don't care if it will be a HE or a SHE, as long as he/she will help and inspire me to be a better person. Maybe it might be my new officemates, new friends, random different person or someone famous (as if i have the chance). I know, everything has a purpose. Whoever you are. I'm here! excitedly waiting. =)

xoxo,

someone ready to be inspired

Dearest Big Dreams,

*Intro* Dreams are my reality nanananana... song yan! :)) Hey Dream! I wish someday you'll be my reality. I have a lot of dreams! Plenty plenty! Like to be a billionaire so freaking bad! Or to travel the world. Sometimes I wish I was born rich but then again. I'm happy with my life.

Seriously, I'll enumerate 3 of my dreams.. First, to be with you? haha kiddin. Hindi yan first. Last. hahaha ano ba yan. Again again. My number one dream is to be an archiver with my career. I'll be a boss na pakape kape na lang tska sipol sipol and earn loads of money. If ever, I want my own business at the same time.

Second will be... To have my own house that is fully furnished. Nakainterior pa kung baga. haha Para hindi na ko NPA(no permanent address) Plus swimming pool and gym. Wow. Don't forget the home entertainment room. That's what I called "Dream House".

Third will be just simple... To have someone to share my dreams with... Aaaiiiyyeee! me ganun talaga! hahaha Para saan pa ang lahat ng blessing kung wala naman ako kashare, I'm I right or I'm super right?! Family in the future. Tipong ten years pa dapat yan! hehe I'm not rushing things. Mauna muna ang dapat mauna. Career at kayamanan. Whatever.

God will be my decision maker. Actually, I let go of my dreams and I let God do His will. I know it will be the best. Come what may! I'm ready to be surprise. Only God knows. He will provide.

xoxo,

a dreamer

Dearest Little Sister,

We have 9 years gap, I thought I would be the only child. You're young, talented and pretty. I hope you maximize your potential in the long run. Right now, you're so pasaway and number one bingi! hahaha Sana makinig ka sa mga kung anu-anong mangsinasabi namin sa iyo kasi madami ka pang hindi alam. Masama magmagaling. haha Habulin ka pa naman... habulin ng away! That's why we always tell you to be careful with your actions! Sometimes you don't know you're offending someone. Iyakin ka pa naman tska saksakan ng arte! :)))) (nilait daw un kapatid) Sobrang daldal na hindi ko maintindihan kung saan mapupunta un kwento mo. Whatever. Kahit inaapi kita at times gusto ko ako lang yun. If someone's doing the same to you, sumbong mo sa akin. Ako lang ang number one bully mo! Wag ka papabully sa iba. Masama yun. haha

Just study hard, tska dapat pag graduate mo ng highschool, pang UP yung grade mo para mura lang babayaran ko pag tagal tagal hehehe (kahit sa pagpapaaral kuripot pa din?) hehe Sundin mo lang sinabi ko magkakasundo tayo. Nako nako lang talaga. Umayos ka! hehehe Take care always and don't be afraid to try new things! Keep on praying.

xoxo,

your gorgeous sister

YES! Finally after the hard work, we finally especially me will experience "FIRST PAY DAY!" Wooohh. I'm happy that even though you know (basta) =)) secret ko muna. We watched Eclipse kahit muntik muntk na hindi na tuloy. Ako pa! I always make a way, if a really want something. So with the help of my friends tuloy ang plano.

I'm truly excited for this day! Cinema 7 at Glorietta 4 around 5:45 pm the movie started. Wooh! kilig to the bones. Mukha lang akong tanga sa kilig. Guess who? No other than my hobby JACOB. hahahaha kiddin. I know maraming nagpapantansya kay Jacob. Sabi nga nya kay Edward, I'm hotter that you." I agree. Napapalakpak pa nga ko. =)) OA lang e.

I'm so bitin lang with our bonding time with each other kase after the movie they left na. huhuhu. I don't have the chance to talk to them for a long peroid of time. Pinigil ko nga lang din yung kadaldalan ko sa movie house kahit gustong gusto ko magkwento. Syempre, baka maingayan yun other people, right? hehe Tska hindi naman akin yun movie house. hahaha Yaan nyo next time, sa akin na yung movie house para libre magingay. haha

I treat kathy for a movie. Then, I bought a bag. Mura lang. hahaha Yun lang mga gastos ko for that day. Other gastos was for my baon for my daily life. Corny ako na lahat sa baon ko. Unlike before... Hingi hingi lang. Ngayon parang hindi na ko bibiyan ng money ni mama. BOO! haha Bibilan ko pa nga pala si mommy ng daster. I dunno why she wants that. Anyways, thats all for now. Till my next random blogging! =)

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