Dear someone,
I know, I’m guilty as charged. I guess I ‘m not the only one but mostly people do the same to other people. They judged the way they look, how they talk or how they act. For me, first impression really doesn’t last, because 80% of first impression is your or my own judgment especially for the new persons in our lives. I can’t help to think maybe he’s like that or like this but then again after few talks and get together events. Now I can say it’s all wrong. I judge him or maybe I judged you easy that I didn’t gave you the chance to reveal the real you. I’m so sorry. That’s why we should stop judging people easily, who are we to judge, only God has the privilege to judge everyone. Not you, not me nor not us. Next time let us be careful and avoid the same mistakes.
I know, I’m guilty as charged. I guess I ‘m not the only one but mostly people do the same to other people. They judged the way they look, how they talk or how they act. For me, first impression really doesn’t last, because 80% of first impression is your or my own judgment especially for the new persons in our lives. I can’t help to think maybe he’s like that or like this but then again after few talks and get together events. Now I can say it’s all wrong. I judge him or maybe I judged you easy that I didn’t gave you the chance to reveal the real you. I’m so sorry. That’s why we should stop judging people easily, who are we to judge, only God has the privilege to judge everyone. Not you, not me nor not us. Next time let us be careful and avoid the same mistakes.
xoxo,
not a judge
not a judge
To all naggers and who complains a lot,
One big letter F for you. Hahaha Go f*ck youselves! Sorry but it annoys me if someone nags about this and that then, keeps on complaining. I have an advice, go drown yourselves! Then, die! No one wants to hear your voice, complaining about everything and you keep on repeating it 45 million times a day. Geezz! Get a life! Seriously, once or twice is fine. Trice is tolerable but 45 million times is too much. Haha If you want change, so start acting than blurting words. Nothing will change if you’re motor mouth just keep on going. ACT deary. Is it clear?? Second, stop intervening with my life. I hate it. I have my own brains so I’ll use it to make my own decisions. Ok? Wag pakilamera. Hahaha
xoxo,
irritated
irritated
It’s been a while since I was assigned in graveyard shift. Poor little me! I was like wut?! Seriously? First job and yeah graveyard. I pity myself. Haha Because everytime I went to the office people were going home but me no! haha Sadness. TRUE! I am not really used to it. First week was nightmare!!! Sleepy much. I can’t help to be sleepy for every time I have a chance. ZOMBIE! That’s me! I have no choice. Why me? That’s the only question puffs into my mind. But as time comes, I’m adjusting and adjusting. I can do it. I’m the best. Hahaha Just being positive all the time. Doubts really came up to my head. I can’t stop but to overthink any situation. Kulang lang pala ako sa tulog narealize ko kaya drama dramahan ako minsan.
From now on, ako na si Bella at ikaw na ang Edward ko. Pwede na din ako maging si batgirl basta ikaw ang batman ko. =)) Taong panggabi! Ako na nga kong ako na! haha See? I’m starting to be cranky. Hahaha forgive me! When I came out in our office, my eyes hurts because of the sunshine, so I always wear my shades. Hindi na ko nag-aayos kasi naman, wala ng makakakita sa akin. Dilim e. Make up?? Nakakatamad. Too lazy to fix myself. But when I’m out with my friends or family dun na lang bumabawi sa pag-aayos ng itsura. Eyebags?? My number one dilemma! Dark circles around my eyes? Bullshit! Pumapangit na talaga ako,. Hahaha kaya gusto ko na magresign minsan e. Just kidding. Ibang topic na pag resign ang pinaguusapan. Okie? Next time.
Food for thought:
“ Things change and everything changes.
All we can do is to adopt and to accept.”
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"SOMETIMES."
Yesterday, YES! Today, NO! Tomorrow, same same! I'm so sorry! I'm just confused with my emotions right now. I don't know what to do. I should be happy right? Why I'm becoming so futuristic and all? Now I'm not happy. Later I'm happy. BOO! This sucks! I'm not a quitter but everything seems to be boring. I want excitement. I want adventure. I want to try new things. I want to gain new knowledge and skills. I need something to keep me going. I need a lot of motivation. MOTIVATE ME PLEASE! There's something bothering me and I don't know what it is. I'm such a BLAH right now. I tend to over-think every situation I have. Maybe lack of sleep is one factor why I'm becoming like this. So I'll be sleeping now and I hope tomorrow this feeling will fade away. (sorry for this confusing entry I just want to express my emo days like this one i've experiencing now! HAHA)
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Yeah. The best OUT TO GROOVE! First, I will define the OTG, well it is the most awaited Shit of Paulinians. That's right?! An event that all courses have a representative to groove(dance) at the stage of our auditorium. It will be the last moment to watch the event. Guess what happen?! It was full of CRAP! Damn. We haven't bought tickets earlier because they told us it was sold out and there will be another selling of tickets on the day of the OTG. So to be sure, we lined up earlier as the said time. It was all wasted time. Let me explain it with Taglish version...
Ganito yan, 4:30pm yun bentahan daw ng ticket so 3:30pm nakapila na kami with other Paulinians, who also want to watch and support there courses. Kaso nagkalokohan na eh. May sumisingit sa pila, kaya yung iba nagtantrums na, nagwawala na, nagiinarte na. Medyo kasama na ko dun. Who won't be irritated, isang dipa na lang pasok na kami sa audi biglang sabi nila,"Okey hindi na kami magpapasok, close na namin yun door." FTW! Ayan na e. Malapit na pumila pa kami ng ilang oras, 2hours yun with our heels and long sleeves. Aaaarrg! I haven't lost hope. We went to the main door, baka magpapasok. Bigla dumagsa yung ibang tao. So no chance na talaga. Eto pa! It broke my heart to many pieces, kase may iba pang may ticket na hindi pa nakakapasok kaya kausap nila un marshall, andun ako nakikiUsi babaka sakali lang na makaextra sa nagkakagulong tao. Nagsalita na ang marshall, "Sige, ganito na lang. papasukin namin kayo, kaso yung mga walang ticket *sabay tingin sa akin, eye to eye* HINDI NA papasukin." OUCH! sakit mehn. Maiyak-iyak ako nung sinabi nya skin un face to face. Hindi mo naman kailangan pamukha sa akin na wala akong ticket at hindi ako makakapasok di ba. Parang sa akin mo lang talaga sinabi. Wah. Ako lang ba ang tao dun na walang ticket huh? Sarap gerahin eh. I've always looking forward for this event especially now last year na. Kakahiyan talaga mga nagawa namin just to enter this event. Pasilip-silip sa gilid ng audi. Palakad-lakad. Until one of the marshall told us to go to Conference B, free watching kaso live feed lang via camcorder. Naawa na yata sa amin yun kaya sinabi sa amin. No choice, sayang ang pagod at hirap kaya pinatos na namin yun. At least nakapanood kami, kasama pa namin ang ibang contestant. Kewl. One heck of a day! Masaya naman kami. Enjoy. hahaha Kung lam nyo lang, someone was offering me a ticket kaso isa lang. Naiisip ko naman, makakapanood nga ko I'm not with my friends. Corny much. I decline. Good decision na din. =) Ganon ko sila kalove. hahaha Kaya if you wanna be my lover you gotta get with my friends. *spice girls* :))
Afterward, I went to lawton to ride a FX. I arrived around 9pm at home. GOOD TIMES.
Ganito yan, 4:30pm yun bentahan daw ng ticket so 3:30pm nakapila na kami with other Paulinians, who also want to watch and support there courses. Kaso nagkalokohan na eh. May sumisingit sa pila, kaya yung iba nagtantrums na, nagwawala na, nagiinarte na. Medyo kasama na ko dun. Who won't be irritated, isang dipa na lang pasok na kami sa audi biglang sabi nila,"Okey hindi na kami magpapasok, close na namin yun door." FTW! Ayan na e. Malapit na pumila pa kami ng ilang oras, 2hours yun with our heels and long sleeves. Aaaarrg! I haven't lost hope. We went to the main door, baka magpapasok. Bigla dumagsa yung ibang tao. So no chance na talaga. Eto pa! It broke my heart to many pieces, kase may iba pang may ticket na hindi pa nakakapasok kaya kausap nila un marshall, andun ako nakikiUsi babaka sakali lang na makaextra sa nagkakagulong tao. Nagsalita na ang marshall, "Sige, ganito na lang. papasukin namin kayo, kaso yung mga walang ticket *sabay tingin sa akin, eye to eye* HINDI NA papasukin." OUCH! sakit mehn. Maiyak-iyak ako nung sinabi nya skin un face to face. Hindi mo naman kailangan pamukha sa akin na wala akong ticket at hindi ako makakapasok di ba. Parang sa akin mo lang talaga sinabi. Wah. Ako lang ba ang tao dun na walang ticket huh? Sarap gerahin eh. I've always looking forward for this event especially now last year na. Kakahiyan talaga mga nagawa namin just to enter this event. Pasilip-silip sa gilid ng audi. Palakad-lakad. Until one of the marshall told us to go to Conference B, free watching kaso live feed lang via camcorder. Naawa na yata sa amin yun kaya sinabi sa amin. No choice, sayang ang pagod at hirap kaya pinatos na namin yun. At least nakapanood kami, kasama pa namin ang ibang contestant. Kewl. One heck of a day! Masaya naman kami. Enjoy. hahaha Kung lam nyo lang, someone was offering me a ticket kaso isa lang. Naiisip ko naman, makakapanood nga ko I'm not with my friends. Corny much. I decline. Good decision na din. =) Ganon ko sila kalove. hahaha Kaya if you wanna be my lover you gotta get with my friends. *spice girls* :))
Afterward, I went to lawton to ride a FX. I arrived around 9pm at home. GOOD TIMES.
FROM THE POST OF MY FRIEND IN MULTIPLY. :)
Sabi ng mga lalake sila daw nahihirapan when it comes to the whole procedure of making the girl fall.
They have to plan this and that...spend money just to buy a simple teddy bear to make the girl smile.
They have to do almost everything just to make us believe that when they say "i love you" they mean it...Sabi pa nila sila ung nahihirapan pag nagkakaroon ng LQ kasi dapat cla pa ung gagawa ng 1st move at manunuyo. Mahirap daw e...ung sitwasyon nila pag nababasted kasi masakit daw un.
A girl's point of view:
So ur sayin...u love the girl and u mean it ey? That u'll do everything for us NOT to cry, that u'll stay with us even if everything becomes harder than it seems, and u'll prove us that ur downright honest with everything that u utter. u expect us to believe that crap???? mga chong di naman kasi kami ganun katanga eh...
A girl's point of view:
So ur sayin...u love the girl and u mean it ey? That u'll do everything for us NOT to cry, that u'll stay with us even if everything becomes harder than it seems, and u'll prove us that ur downright honest with everything that u utter. u expect us to believe that crap???? mga chong di naman kasi kami ganun katanga eh...
hindi naman porke nakita lang namin na "ui ang bait pala nya..." e mahal na namin kagad kayo!
sasabihin nyo samin na mahal nyo kami ni hindi nyo pa nga kami ganun kakilala? makita nyo lang
na "ui ang pretty naman nya!ligawan ko kaya?"
tapos ano?mahal nyo na kagad kami?
kaya ngafriends muna eh! para makilala nyo muna kami ng mabuti para pag nagkarelasyon na ndi nyo
un kagad e db?pero pag kayo nilandi ni masabing kakilala nyo kami di nyo
magawa kasi gustong gusto nyo ung feeling na may lumalandi snyo. so pano ba namang ndi kami magiging strikto kung kayo mismo
sabihin na nating mahirap manligaw...ocge mahirap pala eh,bat nyo pa ginagawa???
pag ligaw di ibig sabhin nun magiging kayo na! kaya nga ligaw e...dalawa sagot nyan sa huli,
its either ayaw tlg namin or oo subukan natin.
tpos sasabihin nyo masakit mabasted?expect the unexpected.
di porke napayagan ka ng manligaw e oo na kagad ung sagot namin kaya nyo lang
inaantay...kagaguhan un! shmpre papakita nyo lng ung "good side" db?tapos pag naging kayo na...wala na...lahat ng baho lumabas na. so sino sa tingin nyo nagssuffer sa huli?kami db?wag nyo sabihing kayo kasi kagaguhan ulit un!
minsan kasi pag alam na ng guy na mahal na mahal na sila,ayan na...they'll start taking the girl for granted. pag alam na nilang ang baba na tlg ng pride ng babae kayo naman magpapahabol ganun ba? tapos pag muka na kaming tanga
ipagmamayabang nyo pa sa mga kaibigan nyo db? tssssss....tama db?buti nga kayo malasing lang kinabukasan naka move on na e..palibhasa kasi walang nawala snyo.e panu kaya kaming mga girls??? kahit umiyak kami ng dagat wala naman
na kayong pakialam e.db?
so who's selfish now? girls pa rin ba?
di porke napayagan ka ng manligaw e oo na kagad ung sagot namin kaya nyo lang
inaantay...kagaguhan un! shmpre papakita nyo lng ung "good side" db?tapos pag naging kayo na...wala na...lahat ng baho lumabas na. so sino sa tingin nyo nagssuffer sa huli?kami db?wag nyo sabihing kayo kasi kagaguhan ulit un!
ipagmamayabang nyo pa sa mga kaibigan nyo db? tssssss....tama db?buti nga kayo malasing lang kinabukasan naka move on na e..palibhasa kasi walang nawala snyo.e panu kaya kaming mga girls??? kahit umiyak kami ng dagat wala naman
na kayong pakialam e.db?
so who's selfish now? girls pa rin ba?
we never asked u to fall for us & do everything for us.
it was ur own stupid decision to enter such mess. u guys are lucky coz wer subtle enough to tell u the truth when we don't like u.
WHAT CAN YOU SAY?!
WHAT CAN YOU SAY?!
Hey! I'm back. After twenty days of busy-ness, I'm here to let it out. Feelings, thoughts and mindless opinions of mine.
NOW.
I wanna cry! Then, scream with all my might. So I could caught the attention of everyone. I'm sad and happy. Sad because I don't still have an assurance for my intership. I felt I am a major loser! Companies doesn't want me. *boo-hu-hu-huuu* I have four interviews then what did I get?? huh? Nothing. My self-esteem was crashed. Big time! Awhile ago, I'm crying. Yes! I know right? Me crying? for the love of gad, Gez! I can't help it. I'm also human. I'm ashamed, everytime I go to school with a formal attire and people keep asking, "where are you going?" For the nth time, I'll answer, "Interview". *Bullshit!* (baka sabihin nila, interview na naman, anak ng!) It feels unfair everytime I think of my other classmates. Unfair for the reason that our chairperson was responsible in finding their company. How about me? Why can't I feel that she is helping us? I know she is busy. I am irritated. hahaha I'm not fully enjoying this sembreak, if I still have some worries about the effin OJT. As the quote said, "Desperate time comes to desperate measure." It's true. I email-ed some companies, who can accept me for intership, I'm praying with all my heart so they will response in my emails. Please pray for me. People all over the world! Pray for me. Thank you. :) Our ojt will be starting next week, what will I do. Can anyone hire me?? Please. I'll kneel and beg in front of you. Just hire me as your trainee. Is that too desperate? Told yah. I'm in desperate times.
Anyways, I'm happy because its just in my nature to be happy and to be alive and to be kicking all the time. Even though, I have a little problems in the way. Thinking positive, that's me! Party everyday. Party eveyday. This week's gonna be a good week. Right?! Tell me I'm right. So I could shut up and have a peace of mind.
That's all. THE END! :)
Currently feeling: desperate and uneasy
Currently doing: uploading again the album people can't view
Currently on mind: "Do something with NOTHING"
NOW.
I wanna cry! Then, scream with all my might. So I could caught the attention of everyone. I'm sad and happy. Sad because I don't still have an assurance for my intership. I felt I am a major loser! Companies doesn't want me. *boo-hu-hu-huuu* I have four interviews then what did I get?? huh? Nothing. My self-esteem was crashed. Big time! Awhile ago, I'm crying. Yes! I know right? Me crying? for the love of gad, Gez! I can't help it. I'm also human. I'm ashamed, everytime I go to school with a formal attire and people keep asking, "where are you going?" For the nth time, I'll answer, "Interview". *Bullshit!* (baka sabihin nila, interview na naman, anak ng!) It feels unfair everytime I think of my other classmates. Unfair for the reason that our chairperson was responsible in finding their company. How about me? Why can't I feel that she is helping us? I know she is busy. I am irritated. hahaha I'm not fully enjoying this sembreak, if I still have some worries about the effin OJT. As the quote said, "Desperate time comes to desperate measure." It's true. I email-ed some companies, who can accept me for intership, I'm praying with all my heart so they will response in my emails. Please pray for me. People all over the world! Pray for me. Thank you. :) Our ojt will be starting next week, what will I do. Can anyone hire me?? Please. I'll kneel and beg in front of you. Just hire me as your trainee. Is that too desperate? Told yah. I'm in desperate times.
Anyways, I'm happy because its just in my nature to be happy and to be alive and to be kicking all the time. Even though, I have a little problems in the way. Thinking positive, that's me! Party everyday. Party eveyday. This week's gonna be a good week. Right?! Tell me I'm right. So I could shut up and have a peace of mind.
That's all. THE END! :)
Currently feeling: desperate and uneasy
Currently doing: uploading again the album people can't view
Currently on mind: "Do something with NOTHING"
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historical,
random
Thesis
One of the stressful days of College life is thesis. You're out of place if you haven't experienced doing a thesis whether a baby thesis or an actual thesis that might be the cause of not attending in your graduation. I am happy to say that me and my groupmates have been finished doing it a while ago and also submitted it to our professor. I thank God for helping us in our desperate needs. The only challenge we are going to encounter is the defense. I know, the stress is still on. It will be next week. I should start studying our thesis. We need collaboration and the sense of being Ms. Know-it-all, even though we're not. hahaha. White lies is indeed needed. Practice makes perfect A ++. Right! Go. go.
*looking at my phone very sleeping. doing the cost and benefit analysis*
(@ninay's crib)
I felt really pressured in doing the thesis. Time pressured. The deadlines and the requirements are major cause of my sleepless nights, my 24/7 online duty, my stuttering moments, my memory gaps and my constipation(haha! secret lang natin). Too much makes my mind to clurred and narrow. Despite of thesis, we still have other systems to finish with different programming lauguage like C#, .ASP and visual basic. I have the reason to be BANGAG. For example, sleep in the class, mumble words differently that no one understand but me, get easily tired without doing too much work and going a lot of crazy things. I dunno how or why I can keep up with this shits. I can simply say, I trust God and thank Him with every single grace He has given to me. Praise the LORD! wooh. :)
*the tools we used for the thesis. me busy doing nothing*
(@ninay's room)
After September, it will be petiks time. BUM world will surely welcome me again. Party starts and drinking seesions will be part of it. I hope it will be fun sembreak because it will be my last sembreak. huhuhu Besides, I only have 2 weeks of vacation. I think. Then, implementaion time! thesis again with codes and codes. Together with our OJT, we will continue doing the f*cking thesis. I'm getting fat, for the reason that all I can do is eat, sit, type, stand and move the mouse. Very tiring and productive? haha Anyways, I'm proud to let others know I can sleep earlier!!! FUN.
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